Every time I look at this notebook, I am reminded of how blessed I am to be part of E490 <3 the craziest, loudest and most fun-loving spiritual family I could ever have !! :) and of course, the designer JASMINE TANN!! ;D woohoo, thanks so so much. I'm forever grateful to you.
The sentiment on the notebook says: "Jesus is the answer." This was really very appropriately placed :) and it's a constant reminder to me, to put God first in everything I do. When things don't go my way, when everything around me doesn't seem to look good, when I am down to almost nothing, I am reminded, that Jesus is the answer, to all my worries, my troubles and my heartaches. As long as we choose to Let Go, and Let God, any situation can be turned for the better! and draws us closer to God.
timecheck: 1.24 am! :D goodjob,debb. haha. i'm still wiidee awake though. weird much.
OKAY SO, FINALLY. distractions aside. HIGHERR! what's this all about.
1. Prayer: 30 mins daily {honestly, haven't been able to keep up with this, but trying to! >.<}
2. Fasting: 30 day sabbatical fast, every tues 6am-6pm full fast.
3. Word: revelations from God {yay :)}
Prayer
Maybe I've been too caught up in the "EXAMS ARE OVER!! yay!" highness, Maybe i've been too busy, having fun, too busy, getting my school work done. Too busy, trying to please others. Too busy, trying to be a good friend... and the list goes on...
But are these really good excuses for not spending time to pray and seek God? NO. no way. at least not to me.. Although we are called to Love people, and Love God. Loving God > Loving people. though the two are mutually exclusive, well that's how I see it. not everyone might agree with me, just saying. :)
so, from today on, I AM REALLY DETERMINED. to stop this lousy trend and really spend good quality time, praying everyday. I'm really very free anways. :) why not spend my time fruitfully and wisely. Instead of stoning, staring into space, and well just not getting used to the "un-busyness" of my life at this moment. and fill it with God and His power his Love and all of that good stuff, and not rot away. :p
FASTING
1.30 days sabbatical fast: so, we are supposed to fast from something that takes away our attention from god, or something that we see as VERY hard to give up, in our lives.
-from what I learnt in CGM 2 weeks ago... sabbatical= going into a period of rest, in order to make ourselves stronger.
And, with reference to the bible, Jesus first went through a 40 day sabbatical fast, BEFORE HE BEGAN HIS MINISTRY WITH POWER.
To me, what this means is that in order for us to get POWER we must first humble ourselves before God. and in order to be filled with power, we have to first submit ourselves to god and surrender our lives, for His purpose, so that he can do something GREAT and AWESOME and MIND BLOWING in our lives. :)
so.. what we are supposed to achieve after this fast is..
- Who are we in God? {self-image}
- What do we have in the Lord? {our strength in God}
- Who God is? {God-image}
This is just my interpretation of it. :) But I believe that these are 3 very impt in our walk with God, because. How can we have a greater trust for God, if we don't know WHO He is, and What He's like, how can we be better people, if we don't even know, OURSELVES well enough , how are we going to shine for God, if we dont even know what we are, and who we are, IN GOD. :)
And finally, what we have, this keeps us rooted, and thankful, for what God has done for us. and gives me a greater understanding, of how the holy spirit helps us along the way ~
Wow, okay this post is getting really long, longer than i expected. heh. xD
MY FAST: nothing much I do that takes away my time ... that I can fast from.. so, since FOOD is like my next greatest love in life :p im fasting from my FAVOURITE FOOD..!! which is..
ALL FRIED FOOD:no more Old Chang Kee for me.. -GASP-
BUBBLE TEA!: any drink with pearls, no.
FIZZY DRINKS!: any kind of drink with gas, is a no.
3 days have passed! only 27 more days to go!! jiayous everyone! <3
Tuesdays will be full fast days 6am-6pm LIQUIDS ONLY! :) haven't had one yet, but will soon! this tuesday!
I am really expecting God to move greatly in my life during this 30 days, as we all begin to seek him more, with an honest and pure heart, I really believe that the awesome and best is yet to come! :)
God's Word
Finally, I'M AT THE FINAL POINT! LOL!! :P so, just wanted to share this revelation that I received from God during Saturday's service, that was really like, WOW, BAM. -moment of realization- to me. haha. during Pst John's preaching, which, btw
so.. one of the verses that Pst John pointed out was..
Judges 6:12-18 : the story of Gideon.
12 When the angel of the LORD appeared to Gideon, he said, “The LORD is with you, mighty warrior.”
13 “Pardon me, my lord,” Gideon replied, “but if the LORD is with us, why has all this happened to us? Where are all his wonders that our ancestors told us about when they said, ‘Did not the LORD bring us up out of Egypt?’ But now the LORD has abandoned us and given us into the hand of Midian.”
14 The LORD turned to him and said, “Go in the strength you have and save Israel out of Midian’s hand. Am I not sending you?”
15 “Pardon me, my lord,” Gideon replied, “but how can I save Israel? My clan is the weakest in Manasseh, and I am the least in my family.”
16 The LORD answered, “I will be with you, and you will strike down all the Midianites, leaving none alive.”
17 Gideon replied, “If now I have found favor in your eyes, give me a sign that it is really you talking to me.18 Please do not go away until I come back and bring my offering and set it before you.”
And the LORD said, “I will wait until you return.”
what I received from this passage is ...
1. THE LORD IS ALWAYS WITH US. No matter when or where, and he Loves us so , so much, all the time. {verse12}
2. Why is all these bad things happening to us, why? How can we be suffering when God is with us, this is the exact question that had been resounding in my head for the past few days, ever since I got back my terrible horrible kana sai results... why, did this happen? even though I had put in so much effort, and studied so hard and believed with all my heart that this time, I will see a change in my marks, for the better. Why, am I still one of the last, and instead deproved, horrible, why, how can this be God? why are you letting this happen to me? {verse 13}
So, you could say I left exactly like Gideon in the bible then.. doubtful, questioning.. of God's power and his existence, just because, things didn't go how I would like them to, and ofcourse I was horribly disappointed.
3. "Go in the strength you have and save Israel out of Midian’s hand. Am I not sending you?” , this is really the verse, that had reminded me, that GOD IS WITH US, and His Strength is sufficient to overcome any failure, and disappointment and such. So, it is really just our minds, and our narrow minded thinking that restricts us from seeing the great miracles that God wants to do in our lives. If we continue to be upset and just.. well sink and drown ourselves in our sadness, and only focus on that. We would be horribly sad people, but WE ARE CHRISTIANS! :) AND WE HAVE GOD ON OUR SIDE. who has the power to forgive us, of any sin. Big or small significant or not. I really felt so convicted by God's power when this verse was read out, because, everything we need to succeed and be an awesome child of god, is WITHIN US, which is God, all we have to do, is take that step of faith,let go and move forward, towards miracles hopes dreams and our destiny. Which God has in store for us.
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
-Jeremiah 29:11
Really want to encourage everyone out there, those ofyou struggling with something, just STOP WORRYING, and put your faith in our Lord, that He will work things out for you. Keep praying, Keep trusting and Keep believing! that will keep you perked up all the time!
4. this is really the answer to all the questions above, I will be with you, and you will strike dowN all the Midianites, leaving none alive. GOD IS WITH US! ALWAYS! IT'S JUST WHETHER WE CHOOSE TO BELIEVE IN HIM AND TAKE THAT STEP OF FAITH! :)
This verse reminded me of the word that God had given me, when I had been given the post of Vice Captain of Faraday... :)
Luke 16:10 (New Living Translation)
10 “If you are faithful in little things, you will be faithful in large ones. But if you are dishonest in little things, you won’t be honest with greater responsibilities."
This is a constant reminder to myself, that it is because I had been faithful in doing the little, insignificant things as a level rep, that I am now given this higher post of vice captain. And that is the minimum expected of me, probably more. Which requires me to be faithful in MORE things, and BIGGER more important things. It also reminds me to be genuine and honest to all those around me, and be the debb i know i am, not some multi faced person. :)
another verse for encouragement...
"Instead, God chose things the world considers foolish in order to shame those who think they are wise. And he chose things that are powerless to shame those who are powerful."
-1 Corinthians 1:27I may not be the strongest, and the wisest, but I definitely have God on my side! and that alone is good enough, for me at least :)
we may not be the strongest, in fact we might be the weakest, but GOD WILL USE US, to put the wise and the powerfull to shame, and bring glory to His name, and His name only.
this is the reason for my motivation.
OKAY timecheck 2: 2.43am REALLY TIME TO SLEEP THIS TIME!
GOODNIGHT!
-whoops, 3.05 am, and i'm still here...
With love,
Deborahhhh!
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