Looking Back.

Just as the title says, this post is a reflection of what has been happening ever since I've gone on hiatus Which is honestly VERY long period of time. Things, people, attitudes, feelings, everything changes with time, but the only constant that I can rely on is God. :)  Ever so loving and trusting in me.

Major life events include:

1.WAY too LOUD! camp 2012
2. Starting of Term 3(which is omg gonna end)
3. Faraday sports day build up.
4. EMERGE 2012.

BUT I REALLY HAVE NO TIME TO BLOG ABOUT IT RIGHT NOW COS OF ALL THE HOMEWORK DUE.

WHOEVER SAID YEAR 4 WAS THE HARDEST YEAR OF NUSHS LIFE, ITS A LIEEEE. YEAR 5 IS HORROR. d: but the fun in hostel sort of balances it out i guess. hehe.

and if you take 4 majors, you have a much easier life... that's for sure. honors is a whole new level of cheem-ness which I never expected, but it's worth a challenge I guess :D

homework list
W9

• Math tuition -Tues, 4pm
• Chem Hons Quiz 2-wed
• Meet ARP mentor-SSEF forms
• Chem Major Ass
• Math Hons Ass 
• Math Major Ass
• Math Major Case Study
• Physics Test 
• English Summative compre
• Chem Major Project lab slot

W10

• EL research paper-Monday
• Chem Hons Test-Wed
• EL current affairs x3-Wed
• SPORTS DAY -THURS
• TDAY REHEARSAL-THURS
• TDAY ~! -FRIDAY.

Story of my life... oh gosh... ;P

here goes.

I seem to have lost touch with blogging, after not doing so for ages. I don't even want to know when I kicked the habit of daily/weekly postings. I've just been too busy for this, and oh wells. Excuses to get in the way of things. But that's one thing I'm learning not to rely on. Excuses, they get us into places, things we don't usually get, and also give us concessions when we're not supposed to receive them. Are excuses valid just because someone else approves of them? I would think no. 

But maybe, just maybe this is God's way of showing His favour, to save our ass on days we are completely doomed. Perhaps that is grace, the unwarranted and totally, completely free giving, of chances, of things that are being added into each and everyone of our lives'. I was considering, and maybe we should not completely shut ourself off from making up excuses, and blaming our business on certain things. Sometimes these things we "blame" or count as excuses are of very high value indeed to our lives'. Spending time with our loved ones, caring for a hurting friend or even just taking time to de-stress and relax. We need such quality times for us to function between stress times of work. Then there's the quote that says, work is no longer work when you enjoy it as much as play. 

That's one of my aims in life, to find that joy, in "work" to find joy in everything I do, all the time. Then will I be able to be a limitless person. 

Limits are just boundaries we place on ourselves in our heads, thoughts or minds. They are there because we have chosen for them to be there, they are never permanent. and only as permanent as we think they are. I am who I think I can be. Sometimes that's really different from who I am right now, and who I would want to be, but that's just because we think of the limitations and circumstances, and try to manage our thoughts realistically. But what if there were no limits, and I worked as if I could do everything. Then maybe I will emerge greater and expand my capacity, personally. 

Isaiah 54:2-4

“Enlarge the place of your tent,
And let them stretch out the curtains of your dwellings;
Do not spare;
Lengthen your cords,
And strengthen your stakes.
³ For you shall expand to the right and to the left,
And your descendants will inherit the nations,
And make the desolate cities inhabited.

⁴ “Do not fear, for you will not be ashamed;

DO NOT FEAR ;) that's my goal for this term, semester. to make it through with courage and boldness. 

Throughts. Ponderings.

I was just wondering, maybe blogging on a daily basis would be a good way to end my day, spend some time reading His word as well, and equip me for the day ahead.

Today was a really interesting day. I fell sick in the morning, rested and almost instantly was back to normal. Got to skip the Organic Chemistry Quiz. THANK GOD. Did not study one bit for it yet. and well, PE was a dASSASTER. as oh five would say it. Wanted to go back to hostel for more rest, but I guess some fun wouldn't hurt. Not until she made me play on the scorching track, barefoot. she is insane ._.

SO, I read that the bes way to spend the last 5 minutes of your day is to reflect. Maybe I should do just that, instead of the usual busy task completing. I see value in thoughts and new perspectives on ordinary things.

Heaven, on Earth.

What exactly IS heaven?

We have Heaven and Earth green tea, Heaven and Earth, are they REALLY that different after all, is Heaven REALLY a place?  or maybe it is just some fantasy of an ideal and perfect world which we imagine and create in our minds, like some say,  Heaven might  just be a philosophical ideal we coin today, Heaven with the rainbow and the pot of gold at the end of it, with its majestic glory of light, where there is no darkness at all, to the scientific minds, this might seem absolutely impossible. To some, these are just ideas or thoughts which we have, when we think of the word HEAVEN, but today as my day of deep thought and thinking came to me, I had an amazing revelation of WHAT  Heaven is, a small bit of it , as I read a random devotion online, found here, GFIG. It was titled, "Just Passing Through" Of course, this is not exhaustive, and I do not claim to know everything about Heaven and Earth, but i would just like to share a tiny bit about what I have come to know about it. :) 

Very often, when we face difficult situations or problems in our life, or maybe your life is not going exactly and ideally as you have planned. We often think this:  "For a few minutes, I had forgotten that this world is not my eternal home, and its troubles and trials are only temporary. You see, when I came to Christ, my citizenship was automatically and eternally changed from earth to heaven."

And indeed, this was what HIT me the most, that when we become christians, OUR WORLD, is not our ETERNAL home, and everything we experience can only last for short periods of time. Though to us, the ones experiencing it, seconds might seem like hours, and days like years, all these in God's eyes are still considered "temporary", and when we begin to have a revelation of God's timeframe, that is when you realise your problems or situations aren't as big and long suffering and hard as they seem, IF we have the Lord with us. Because His citizenship is ETERNAL, and that He is the reason I am Serving, day in day out, week in week out. It is because Serving His people has an ETERNAL value. Long gone have I forgotten about such things that have ETERNAL value in them, and lost sight of our ultimate goal in life, which is ETERNITY.

I Thank God for such impactful words that have spoken straight into my heart, and I hope these words will ignite you as well. :) 

Here's a story shared on the devotion page as well, my reaction was literally :OO

 I read about an American tourist who paid a visit to a renowned Polish rabbi. The tourist was astonished to see that the rabbi's home was just a simple room filled with books, a table and a cot. "Rabbi, where is your furniture?" the tourist asked. The rabbi simply replied, "Where is yours?" The puzzled American asked, "Mine? But I am only a visitor here. I'm only passing through." The rabbi smiled and replied, "So am I."

So, back to my initial question on WHAT exactly is Heaven? I believe that Heaven is a PLACE, a real HOME where God calls us to be with Him, once we are finished with His works on this earth, it is our ETERNITY, where we will spend the rest of our lives', as we will have eternal life in Heaven. And Heaven is the home God Himself, has handcrafted and prepares daily as many souls enter into His eternal kingdom each day. This same God, who created the universe in 6 days, has been creating heaven for over 2000 years, how much more fabulous, majestic and amazing Heaven would be if you can just imagine it right now. This God is indeed the same God that is residing in each and every one of our hearts, who is WITH us, who is FOR us, and will always be. 

If you would like, here are the verses to confirm my idea of Heaven, which are from God's word. For indeed heaven and earth may pass away, but the word of the Lord never changes. :) Thus, indeed these portrayals of heaven are definitely accurate. Acts 1:11

Something to bring everyone forward from their struggles (: 

When I hold the troubles and trials of this world against the backdrop of heaven, peace floods my heart, mind and soul. I just need to remember that this world is not really my home. I am just passing through. How about you?

With Love, 

deborah. 

Me.

Personal Life, hence the title very well explains. 


I am almost turning 18, and that means I'm officially gonna be a Legal mature adult. FWAAH, it just hit me today, as I was day dreaming, this thought hit me so hard that I began thinking about what kind of person I am, right now, and who I want to be, when that day finally comes, 20 April 2013, when I will be 18. 


So this was the outcome, as of now, I need to start taking responsibility of my own actions and choices, and stop pinning the blame on others, for my choice of actions and my attitude or the way I see things. So what if this happened, or that happened, or maybe I think that I'm not as priviledged as most people my age, or maybe I think I'm living a very different lifestyle. So what, that does not give me excuses to live any less happier or more fulfilling. That would be solely my choice, and how I would want to let certain events, things, people. Mould me, shape me and allow me to become who I am today. HUMILITY. If it is my fault, I will humbly and honestly admit it. Sparing a thought for others, to be more sensitive, to people's needs, their feelings of my loved ones, and most importantly, not be an absentee friend, who's only there to enjoy in good times, and disappears in troubles or bad times, but to be someone people can count on, who can trust, with their problems difficulties and maybe even insecurities. This is the debb I want to be. 


I AM a mature adult who can think for myself.  Another, 10 months for me to work towards this! :) Go debb! 

Refreshing

Hello Everyone,

So, I've suddenly remebered that I actually HAD a blog a few days ago, and it took me a FEW days to remember its address, wow, i'm amazing right.. create a blog then forget it's address, heh.

These few weeks have really been amazing :) My holidays have never felt this PACKED! in a long, long time. LOUD! Camp is coming and this year I'm involved in helping out ! :) can't believe that JUST last year, it was the first ever church camp i've EVER been to, and this year I'll be on the other end of it ! Going from one to the other, its exciting, Getting to serve everyone and HYPE everyone up, hahaa. :DD Though it's my first time! and I've never really done something like this before, but pushing me above what I THIiNK I can handle is good, it makes me step up to the plate. Most of all, I know that this was MEANT for me :) and I'm doing the right thing at the right time.

IT IS ONLY 5 DAYS TO LOUD CAMP, GOODNESS, AHHH CHIONG AH CHIONG AH. :P yupp, that's what I will need to do! :) Working doubly hard and smarter and more efficiently as well :)

Hopefully I will not lose my voice, cos LOUD camp is gonna be LAOOUUDD!! extra extra loud!! ahhaha..!! woohoo! :)

God has really been so good in my life, and I can never be more thankful. Just like David slayed goliath, I'm gonna tackle whatever comes with faith, knawing that I have a God IN me, and WITH me, who knows exactly what to do and what is best for me :)

Destiny, calling out to me. Closer God to thee~

Need more rest, I should really take better care of my body indeed, should get 8h minimum to hibernate for 3 days of no sleep! HAHAHAH.

LETS GO USA LETS GO WOH!