Looking Back.

Just as the title says, this post is a reflection of what has been happening ever since I've gone on hiatus Which is honestly VERY long period of time. Things, people, attitudes, feelings, everything changes with time, but the only constant that I can rely on is God. :)  Ever so loving and trusting in me.

Major life events include:

1.WAY too LOUD! camp 2012
2. Starting of Term 3(which is omg gonna end)
3. Faraday sports day build up.
4. EMERGE 2012.

BUT I REALLY HAVE NO TIME TO BLOG ABOUT IT RIGHT NOW COS OF ALL THE HOMEWORK DUE.

WHOEVER SAID YEAR 4 WAS THE HARDEST YEAR OF NUSHS LIFE, ITS A LIEEEE. YEAR 5 IS HORROR. d: but the fun in hostel sort of balances it out i guess. hehe.

and if you take 4 majors, you have a much easier life... that's for sure. honors is a whole new level of cheem-ness which I never expected, but it's worth a challenge I guess :D

homework list
W9

• Math tuition -Tues, 4pm
• Chem Hons Quiz 2-wed
• Meet ARP mentor-SSEF forms
• Chem Major Ass
• Math Hons Ass 
• Math Major Ass
• Math Major Case Study
• Physics Test 
• English Summative compre
• Chem Major Project lab slot

W10

• EL research paper-Monday
• Chem Hons Test-Wed
• EL current affairs x3-Wed
• SPORTS DAY -THURS
• TDAY REHEARSAL-THURS
• TDAY ~! -FRIDAY.

Story of my life... oh gosh... ;P

here goes.

I seem to have lost touch with blogging, after not doing so for ages. I don't even want to know when I kicked the habit of daily/weekly postings. I've just been too busy for this, and oh wells. Excuses to get in the way of things. But that's one thing I'm learning not to rely on. Excuses, they get us into places, things we don't usually get, and also give us concessions when we're not supposed to receive them. Are excuses valid just because someone else approves of them? I would think no. 

But maybe, just maybe this is God's way of showing His favour, to save our ass on days we are completely doomed. Perhaps that is grace, the unwarranted and totally, completely free giving, of chances, of things that are being added into each and everyone of our lives'. I was considering, and maybe we should not completely shut ourself off from making up excuses, and blaming our business on certain things. Sometimes these things we "blame" or count as excuses are of very high value indeed to our lives'. Spending time with our loved ones, caring for a hurting friend or even just taking time to de-stress and relax. We need such quality times for us to function between stress times of work. Then there's the quote that says, work is no longer work when you enjoy it as much as play. 

That's one of my aims in life, to find that joy, in "work" to find joy in everything I do, all the time. Then will I be able to be a limitless person. 

Limits are just boundaries we place on ourselves in our heads, thoughts or minds. They are there because we have chosen for them to be there, they are never permanent. and only as permanent as we think they are. I am who I think I can be. Sometimes that's really different from who I am right now, and who I would want to be, but that's just because we think of the limitations and circumstances, and try to manage our thoughts realistically. But what if there were no limits, and I worked as if I could do everything. Then maybe I will emerge greater and expand my capacity, personally. 

Isaiah 54:2-4

“Enlarge the place of your tent,
And let them stretch out the curtains of your dwellings;
Do not spare;
Lengthen your cords,
And strengthen your stakes.
³ For you shall expand to the right and to the left,
And your descendants will inherit the nations,
And make the desolate cities inhabited.

⁴ “Do not fear, for you will not be ashamed;

DO NOT FEAR ;) that's my goal for this term, semester. to make it through with courage and boldness. 

Throughts. Ponderings.

I was just wondering, maybe blogging on a daily basis would be a good way to end my day, spend some time reading His word as well, and equip me for the day ahead.

Today was a really interesting day. I fell sick in the morning, rested and almost instantly was back to normal. Got to skip the Organic Chemistry Quiz. THANK GOD. Did not study one bit for it yet. and well, PE was a dASSASTER. as oh five would say it. Wanted to go back to hostel for more rest, but I guess some fun wouldn't hurt. Not until she made me play on the scorching track, barefoot. she is insane ._.

SO, I read that the bes way to spend the last 5 minutes of your day is to reflect. Maybe I should do just that, instead of the usual busy task completing. I see value in thoughts and new perspectives on ordinary things.

Heaven, on Earth.

What exactly IS heaven?

We have Heaven and Earth green tea, Heaven and Earth, are they REALLY that different after all, is Heaven REALLY a place?  or maybe it is just some fantasy of an ideal and perfect world which we imagine and create in our minds, like some say,  Heaven might  just be a philosophical ideal we coin today, Heaven with the rainbow and the pot of gold at the end of it, with its majestic glory of light, where there is no darkness at all, to the scientific minds, this might seem absolutely impossible. To some, these are just ideas or thoughts which we have, when we think of the word HEAVEN, but today as my day of deep thought and thinking came to me, I had an amazing revelation of WHAT  Heaven is, a small bit of it , as I read a random devotion online, found here, GFIG. It was titled, "Just Passing Through" Of course, this is not exhaustive, and I do not claim to know everything about Heaven and Earth, but i would just like to share a tiny bit about what I have come to know about it. :) 

Very often, when we face difficult situations or problems in our life, or maybe your life is not going exactly and ideally as you have planned. We often think this:  "For a few minutes, I had forgotten that this world is not my eternal home, and its troubles and trials are only temporary. You see, when I came to Christ, my citizenship was automatically and eternally changed from earth to heaven."

And indeed, this was what HIT me the most, that when we become christians, OUR WORLD, is not our ETERNAL home, and everything we experience can only last for short periods of time. Though to us, the ones experiencing it, seconds might seem like hours, and days like years, all these in God's eyes are still considered "temporary", and when we begin to have a revelation of God's timeframe, that is when you realise your problems or situations aren't as big and long suffering and hard as they seem, IF we have the Lord with us. Because His citizenship is ETERNAL, and that He is the reason I am Serving, day in day out, week in week out. It is because Serving His people has an ETERNAL value. Long gone have I forgotten about such things that have ETERNAL value in them, and lost sight of our ultimate goal in life, which is ETERNITY.

I Thank God for such impactful words that have spoken straight into my heart, and I hope these words will ignite you as well. :) 

Here's a story shared on the devotion page as well, my reaction was literally :OO

 I read about an American tourist who paid a visit to a renowned Polish rabbi. The tourist was astonished to see that the rabbi's home was just a simple room filled with books, a table and a cot. "Rabbi, where is your furniture?" the tourist asked. The rabbi simply replied, "Where is yours?" The puzzled American asked, "Mine? But I am only a visitor here. I'm only passing through." The rabbi smiled and replied, "So am I."

So, back to my initial question on WHAT exactly is Heaven? I believe that Heaven is a PLACE, a real HOME where God calls us to be with Him, once we are finished with His works on this earth, it is our ETERNITY, where we will spend the rest of our lives', as we will have eternal life in Heaven. And Heaven is the home God Himself, has handcrafted and prepares daily as many souls enter into His eternal kingdom each day. This same God, who created the universe in 6 days, has been creating heaven for over 2000 years, how much more fabulous, majestic and amazing Heaven would be if you can just imagine it right now. This God is indeed the same God that is residing in each and every one of our hearts, who is WITH us, who is FOR us, and will always be. 

If you would like, here are the verses to confirm my idea of Heaven, which are from God's word. For indeed heaven and earth may pass away, but the word of the Lord never changes. :) Thus, indeed these portrayals of heaven are definitely accurate. Acts 1:11

Something to bring everyone forward from their struggles (: 

When I hold the troubles and trials of this world against the backdrop of heaven, peace floods my heart, mind and soul. I just need to remember that this world is not really my home. I am just passing through. How about you?

With Love, 

deborah. 

Me.

Personal Life, hence the title very well explains. 


I am almost turning 18, and that means I'm officially gonna be a Legal mature adult. FWAAH, it just hit me today, as I was day dreaming, this thought hit me so hard that I began thinking about what kind of person I am, right now, and who I want to be, when that day finally comes, 20 April 2013, when I will be 18. 


So this was the outcome, as of now, I need to start taking responsibility of my own actions and choices, and stop pinning the blame on others, for my choice of actions and my attitude or the way I see things. So what if this happened, or that happened, or maybe I think that I'm not as priviledged as most people my age, or maybe I think I'm living a very different lifestyle. So what, that does not give me excuses to live any less happier or more fulfilling. That would be solely my choice, and how I would want to let certain events, things, people. Mould me, shape me and allow me to become who I am today. HUMILITY. If it is my fault, I will humbly and honestly admit it. Sparing a thought for others, to be more sensitive, to people's needs, their feelings of my loved ones, and most importantly, not be an absentee friend, who's only there to enjoy in good times, and disappears in troubles or bad times, but to be someone people can count on, who can trust, with their problems difficulties and maybe even insecurities. This is the debb I want to be. 


I AM a mature adult who can think for myself.  Another, 10 months for me to work towards this! :) Go debb! 

Refreshing

Hello Everyone,

So, I've suddenly remebered that I actually HAD a blog a few days ago, and it took me a FEW days to remember its address, wow, i'm amazing right.. create a blog then forget it's address, heh.

These few weeks have really been amazing :) My holidays have never felt this PACKED! in a long, long time. LOUD! Camp is coming and this year I'm involved in helping out ! :) can't believe that JUST last year, it was the first ever church camp i've EVER been to, and this year I'll be on the other end of it ! Going from one to the other, its exciting, Getting to serve everyone and HYPE everyone up, hahaa. :DD Though it's my first time! and I've never really done something like this before, but pushing me above what I THIiNK I can handle is good, it makes me step up to the plate. Most of all, I know that this was MEANT for me :) and I'm doing the right thing at the right time.

IT IS ONLY 5 DAYS TO LOUD CAMP, GOODNESS, AHHH CHIONG AH CHIONG AH. :P yupp, that's what I will need to do! :) Working doubly hard and smarter and more efficiently as well :)

Hopefully I will not lose my voice, cos LOUD camp is gonna be LAOOUUDD!! extra extra loud!! ahhaha..!! woohoo! :)

God has really been so good in my life, and I can never be more thankful. Just like David slayed goliath, I'm gonna tackle whatever comes with faith, knawing that I have a God IN me, and WITH me, who knows exactly what to do and what is best for me :)

Destiny, calling out to me. Closer God to thee~

Need more rest, I should really take better care of my body indeed, should get 8h minimum to hibernate for 3 days of no sleep! HAHAHAH.

LETS GO USA LETS GO WOH!

HEY YOU!

Hahah theres now a blogger app pretty cool i guess...! finally no SMP this Wednesday!:) so free but so much stuff to do as well... Raah wanna be over n done with ally homework soonnn

Tolerance or just plain apathy.

So, I think I can tolerate almost everything and any kind of bad behaviour, and whatever retarded crap that comes my way, but what exactly does it mean to be tolerant. To tolerate is to allow the existence of something to occur, in this light me being tolerant doesn't exactly help anyone at all, and people just end up continuing what they did, in their insensitivity, in their jealousy, in their contempt and in their anger.

I need to start being more prominent. bold, and confident of myself and my moral compass, yes.

So, looks like Sunday is going to be a long day~ whee~ yay me? haha.

-STUDY PPV 0%
-geog essay 0%
-geog URA 20%
-eng presentation 0%
-chem workplan 0%
-smp poster 40%
-math GCT 30%
-Physics Test 20%
-PPV forum 1/3
-zuo ye
-yanjiang gao
-juanzi

-THAT'S ALL... its JUST for the week, we're gonna have FUN woohooo.

look at all the FIREWORKSS~

Today was just AWESOME, with E490! ohyeaah!

managed to catch ndp fireworks! wow! it was SPECTACULAR AND BREATHTAKING ANDD ALL GOOD IHTNGS IN ONE!

my eating patterns are really weird these days.. Ytd, skipped dinner, cos I had double lunch ^^ today, skkipped dinner again, well, had really yummy snacks which im sure is lots of fats xD no proper food though..

haha, going out is always fun!! :D wish i could do this everyday :P


~ for now back to lalaland where hopefully I get awesome dreams again.

Its.... national day! ~

So, today we marched. OH THE HORROR. x.x I'm just glad its over. Felt horrible up there. but pheww yay! Really hate marching forever and ever, will never grow to like it mann.

Then the celebrations was.. .well~ the norms, but 408 DIDNT WIN THE VIDOEO WHYY! ): i guess 407's was pretty awesome. oh mannn, the prizes were seriously "attractive"..! $50 BnJ vouchers, oh wells. Still have the ones we won in April, that are yet to be used.

NO LESSONS TILL THURSDAY. how awesome is thaatt! Other than geog makeup lessons which just have to spoil it all.. but I hope I enjoy this holiday!! :D woohoo! ~

Today, is lazearoundathomeandhopefullymiraculouslygetsomeworkdone day! Which is.. SMP poster draft!! Has to be done ASAP have already been pushing back the deadline.

This reminds me of something funny justine once said.. "since when are deadlines not getting closer? " Which is makes so much sense yet I didn't realise it...!

Tomorrow out to celebrate with CG! yay! :D

Wednesday, geogg D: and.. shopping for house rooms!! whee~~ !

In His Hand | guitar4Christ

In His Hand | guitar4Christ

wow, this article really enlightned me. :)

Really worth the read.

Everything we place in God's hands.

grace

empowered, to do His works, extraordinary works.

spin my heard right round.

So, this was a post created on a busy weekday, when I meant to make time to post but just failed. Anyhow, here I am back posting! yay awesomeness. I love blogging now, it allows me to think reflect and express whatever I feel like about every single day or moment or hour and stuff. And this really helps me think straight, most of the time. 


Shall blog about today.. the EPIC DAY. 


SHINI TANN'S SWEET SIXTEENTH! <3 OHYEAH! hahaha, hope she's as happy as I am for her ^,^ She got a life-sized cutout board for her brithday from us retards! (nikki fiona jaz nic josh cy) The idea was totally insane and crazy, but that's the whole reason why we wanted it. :D 


So as usual, shini SCREAMED when she saw it, standard reaction. ahaha, but I can't believe she brought it home, CREEPY MUCH. imagine you staring at yourself in your room while you're a sleep, and maybe wake up in the middle of the night 
lawll. 


Lessons were pretty boring/tiring! slept through most of math and cell bio hehe ;P 
done chem assignemtn! 


~ to be continued~

and then it all made sense, once again.

20 Life Lessons I Learned in My 20’s

An awesome blog post right there! By some dude, and what he's learnt, haha.

Some of them are pretty good shlal just highlight those that jumped out at me. x) and are worth remembering.

Like..

4. No matter how it turns out, it always ends up just the way it should be. Either you succeed or you learn something. Win-Win.

8.Complaining is like slapping yourself for slapping yourself. It doesn’t solve the problem, it just hurts you more.

9.The one with nothing to hide is always the one left standing tall.

18.Even when you feel like you have nothing, someone else likely has far less. Find them and help them. You’ll see why.

20. Remember, change happens for a reason. Roll with it. It won’t be easy, but it will be worth it.

Much for me to ponder upon when I have the time to.. not at this hour definitely, when I have to go to school, on a SATURDAY MORNING, for CHINESE class, are you kidding me. oh wells.

Just to end this off, ~But above all, laugh when you can, apologize when you should, and let go of what you can’t change. Life is short, yet amazing. Enjoy the ride.

:) live,laugh,love.

What is it, about you, that leaves me so breathless.

Just found this youtube artists, who creates all his music on his own, in his basement. Vocals instrumental editting everything. one man band, Alex Goot! haha, sounds like a pretty lonely life though, or rather how I  imagine it... which remind me of the ACE talk today by the college counscillor, I realise I really don't knwo what I want to be up till now. guess i will figure it out soon enough!

OFF TO WORK! haiz.

nice song :) 

SMP I AM DONE WITH YOU,

OOHH YEAAH UHUUUHH WOOHOOOOO WHEE WIITT LA LA LALAAAA!! SMP REPORT IS FINALLY DONE. D.O.N.E.!!!! HAHAHA, IT WAS SUCH A TORTURE COMPLETING IT.. I WONDER WHY.. :/ 


all the late nights, all the stressed up afternoons, all that OVER, IM DONE WITH THEM. YAYE. 




okay i probably sound insanely mad now.. but it's like a huge burden just got lifted off me, haha.  OHYEAAHH. CELEBRATIONNNN




lesson of the day: NEVER EVER buy a whole meal from the western store, it is NEVER filling.. :/ at least for a pig like me. 




note to self: eat more fruits and less junk food to stay full. get more sleep, i need to RUN ): badlyy.... 

busybusybusy

This week as been total OMG-NESS insanity. Rushingout the SMP report like MAADD then getting people for sports day then catching up on homework and quizzes, oh man. one insane week. But im glad Im surviving!! and I will! through the week! okaay time for me to flip through chem notes for tmr's test! haha, shouldn't be too hard.. right xP


JIAYOUS EVERYONE! and go debb!! I can survive this..!! happy happy thoughts~~ lalalala~


funny tumblr quote: i'm on a seafood diet, whenever I see food i eat it xD

BACK.

fwaah, haven't posted in the last .. 8 days!! so long..! oh mann, busyness much!Actually, no, it's just me being laz andnot coming here to post, which is bad, cos blogging hlpes me to reflect and straighten out my thoughts, perhaps that's why I've been feeling a little "messy" and crowded with thoughts and a little stressed up >< yes, must me. 


So, a couple of things worth blogging about.. :) 


1. JULIA ANG'S BIRTHDAY! <3 
2. EMERGE WEEKEND 
3. NATTYY IS THE CHAMPIONN!! 
4. Various house times (shall leave that for another post) 


So, it was a tuesday night, and I didn't go to school that day, cos I was feeling totally exhausted, and my body was aching liek madd,plus some headache. bad combi man, yupps. But it was a SURPRISINGLY PRODUCTIVE DAY chionged math phy chem and chemO assignments in ONE day, woaah. so proud of myself. HAHAH. Then I decided to go for Julia Ang's bday celebration! <3 tons of fun, chat chat eat eat laugh laugh laugh shoot shoot :p ahhaha! really enjoyed time with them, good destresser to end the day! So glad for these awesome sistaas in my  life <3 <3 really treasure them very much!! :D  and SHING is so epic as usual~~ 


EMERGEE...!! MAN,  the most fun fri-sat-sun spent in church !!! :D :D the city noose, natty performing and screaming our lungs out for her... that was EPICLY AWESOME. natty and jelly are so blessed to have such a happy family :) haha, really warms my heart seeing a family so close knitted, and like every single one of their siblings so close to each other, heartening . haha. they are so blessed. mmm, and NATTY IS JUST AMAZING. fwwaahh, her voice is super power, the pitch and the range too, woah. for someone younger than me, wow. so talented, and she's a cheerleader too! amazing. haha. Service during emerge was so AMAZING. really loved it so so much, deeply touched and moved by the word was taught. :) Show meYour Glory. :) and, a shocking fact, I SAW MS RENATA PERFORM ON STAGE, singing!!! infront of like.. 8000 ppl, woah. ahhaha so different from seeing her teach in class once a week ^^ and Mr Bernard Ricardo, on the word power in chc too! coincidence much! super pro! 
City noose was still the best skit ever, I swear. It was so amazingly GOOD and funny to the max!! "boy boy , ahha. laticia bery haapyy. " omg. lol. Higher band and loud camp band was good too !! (Y) 


The banners made were all put to FULL use, and it was all worth the LOTS LOTS LOTS of effort!! <3 truly we were making banners for the CHAMPION! :) not just any contestant.! And its super rewarding to see her so happy at the end, and everyone else too! :D woohoo haha . 

win, lose?

IT'S NOT ALL ABOUT WINNING, IT'S ABOUT BEING A BETTER PERSON, IT'S ABOUT PUTTING UP A FIGHT, IT'S ABOUT DOING YOUR BEST AND TRYING YOUR BEST, always. and not having any regrets. 


I'm better than this, a better person. 


grow up debb. 

and it hit me.

:) how appropriate. haha. 

long gone, and moved on. lessons learnt, priceless.